Am I Worth Your Love

You send my heart a flutter
When I look into your eyes I stammer and stutter
I feel so close yet so far away
You talk and hint of going but here you stay
I don't understand what I can do for you
You don't have to do anything to make me swoon
I've proved to prove yet not past the test,
Just put under the category of all the rest.

Love is such a horrid thing
You lose control and feel like you have wings
Say things you would never say
Have deep breathless kisses that make you sway
Venerable.
Distance is intolerable
Goodbye is even worse
Left lonely with no self worth.
It's a tiring game
But I love to play it all the same
I'll fight for you if you fight for me
Time in time we will see.

Till Death Do Us Part

I can't get you out of my head
I'm so tired of sitting alone in my bed
Waiting for a call to come and dry my tears
And mend my broken heart of many years.
Is it too much to ask for you to care?
Instead I get a death cold stare
Waiting for me to make the move
When all I really want is for you to sooth
My pain that your causing me to feel.
Sometimes I pretend that you aren't real
Just a figure of my imagination
Who leaves me gasping for air with every kissing sensation
It's so hard for me to just let you go
My heart is ripping me apart screaming NO!
Your silence keeps me wondering
What can I do to get her something?
But that something isn't me at all.
I want to call you an ass for making me fall
In love with you, but I can only blame my soul
For making me so attached and making you a goal
Well, I guess it's time to do or die...
So, I love you and goodbye.

Court of Hearts

I lay back in denial
While my heart stands on trial
I fight back tears
Of your hunger that veered

My dreams have foretold
But my ignorance refused to behold
I await for something to be true
And huddle up in pain whispering "I will never stop loving you"

My body is shaking, I want to scream
As if that could keep me sewn in a loving seam
The monster is back and yelling in my head
I fight to stay strong and not do what others dread

I begin to question everything I am
Why can't I seem to keep you around Sam?
What started with love suddenly turned to lust
And I will watch you walk away as I slowly turn to dust.

Ray

I find it hard to choke back tears,
Even though it has only been a few years,
Since you left me on this day
With only melodies and memories to stay.

You had your own style
Starting with a white mane and a big naughty smile
That could give almost any bad day
A small delight, all because of a man called Ray

I remember you driving that big brown rig.
I wish you'd come home again jiggady-jig
And sing a long with a cassette tape
With a "ha cha cha" over any mistake.

I remember our ice cream runs and watching soul
Shine through while you played your trombone
I wish I could still call you on the phone
And share a joke - anything to hear your voice again.

To say "I miss you" would be an understatement
Because no one could ever find a replacement
For my best friend, my grandpa, my Bobby.

I can speak for almost everybody
When I say, I know your not too far away
Because in my heart and your favorite pond you will always stay. <3



--Storm Chaser

Depressed Love

I feel like an unpaid whore
Don't know if I can stand it anymore
I put my heart on the line
But you don't even show a sign
Jump here jump there
Let's not talk about being a pair
I'm so tired of this shit
Acting like you don't care a bit
I am about to explode
Lets watch the damn story unfold

Spring Has Sprung

Brittle and cold, desperate and out of control
Live in a view is scattered and skewed
A caged design with nothing but bone for an outline
Hiding away I'm losing my way
But what does this winter really matter?
Start saying goodbye
I'm not going to say why
It may shatter my perfect hidden world
I've been stuck in inter until you appeared
Like a ray of light in to my dark night
You've lit me up, I finally feel alive
With spring now sprung my hearts no longer numb
Saving my soul; I give you my heart to hold
At your delight please hold me tight
Finally I feel enough, I hope you know it's you I love.

Backstabbers

The truth comes out dramatically
But you still stand there classically
Lingering in silence
This is your chance

Holding composure though seams are worn
It's time to let go and be reborn
Though some people have changed
Lets go and find your place

My head is confused by action
Hypocritical correction
Acceptable imperfection
Leave no room for your affection

I thought you were my friend
But you have shown me that your just a trend
Go on and try to bring down my confidence
Because I am already far from distant.

New Feelings Inside

The slightest words you say
They all clings to my thoughts
And they start to leave a fray
As those words throw shots

I'm so scared
Can this really be a safe place to fall?
You tell me that you truly care
So why am I waiting for the downfall?

The minute you walked into my life
Love, Protection, and Hope
You filled me
You made me feel like I can survive

You say you won't ever leave
But I believe it's easier for you to let me go
I never want you to feel displeased
I couldn't imagine becoming you're foe

I beg that you will catch me as I fall
Please believe me when I say you've saved my life
I am just a little weakling
Hoping I can get you to love twice.

They Are Still There

Questions wrap around
My ankles and shackle me to the ground
Sadness and hopelessness envelops itself
Like a chained blanket around myself.
Tightening, Squeezing, Suffocating.
And as I sit here feeling devastated
Emptiness sets in and numbs me
I wait for acceptance to come
But all that's there is invisible misery
That you can link back to my hushed history

I Have Changed, Haven't I?

Things are repeating but differently
I want to say I've changed
You make it very clear I haven't

I feel my world spiraling down
Only one thing is keeping me afloat
And it's standing there with a knife
Cutting me down like the life I try to leave behind

You make it hard to try to stay "satisfied"
When you tell me you care but never let it show
How many times do I have to wonder
Am I worth a single positive thought?

Little you now, those words will fester in my mind
You'll never see though
My smile glows and hides my pain and depression
You won't suspect a thing

I cling on tight to one last thing
Hope
Maybe someday you will see the change that I feel

Perfect

Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll finally get love
Don't forget to stay in your place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your lying face

Be a good girl
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make them prouder

How long before I screw it up?
How many more nights will I stay up?
With everything skinny can do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet

Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little more
That simply wasn't good enough
Make them prouder

It will live through you, behind you
It will make you into something new
Maybe I'm the best, well that's a lie
Compared to him, compared to her

I'm doing this for my own good
I deserve it and I don't want to feel it
If you give up you'll blow everything
Don't show it, there's no point in crying

Be a good girl
Push a little farther now
You're not pretty enough
To make them happy
They'll love me for who I am if I'm perfect
Then I'll go far

I keep good company
But most days I'm still lonely
I try to do my thing
I might go insane
With my mind unclear, without love here

Be a good damn girl
Go walk through fire
You know you can't erase your sin
I can't bare my own reflection
Mirrors crack and hearts collapse
I'm burning out but I keep moving on

I know something is bound to change
And guess who will be to blame
Why aren't you trying to hold me down?
I feel like I scream without a sound

Be a good girl
Everybody's got it together, why can't you?
Make me feel pretty
While the whole world screams "ugly"

Stop bending me
I already feel like broken glass
No one else can see
The shattered fragments of me

Be a good girl
The pressure is on
It's inside of your head
You'll never win
Though the truth comes up again and again

Don't let them know who you really are
Am I me? Am I going to far?
They'll never know what's underneath until exposed
Shut your mouth and keep perfection close

Be a good fucking girl
Make grub an allergy
One calorie won't make you pretty
They need you to be perfect

I don't remember anymore
The happiness and love I seem to ignore
Everything inside my head won't leave me alone
And yet the fray can't ever be known

Be a good girl
Don't let them down
To be thin is to be loved
Be perfect, don't back down

Swinging On A Tree Swing

Capture me in a bottle
Held so tight a heart can't breathe

Capture me in a dream
Where the birds sing and my soul swings

Capture me in your arms
Protected by love, strong and true

There's A Monster

Disease festers beneath
And attacks beauty in a hungry feast
Devouring mind over matter
Watch as a full plate clashes and clatters
To the floor like your confidence
That's trying it's hardest to keep it's balance
Though behind the curtain hides
Not the cute little girl but an infection full of lies
To tear apart the identity of a smile

Keep telling yourself to believe all the while
You know "beautiful" is more than a mile
Away from the words and curses
And the poisonous verses
Of mockery and torment
It's safe to say that you're overspent
Wasted away from the fun and games
Spite your confidence and esteem that is getting buried in the flames
I create and illusion of happiness
And watch as your mind is put to the test
Can you see through my tricks and games?
Obviously not, because I'm still the same.

A Silent Prayer

Hold me tight
As your arms grasp my mouth in sick delight
Prey for freedom, scream for truth
Reach for hope, look for You

I cry, I plea, scream and dream
Of hope from this reality that is tearing at the seam

I keep my head held high
Trying to stifle a sigh
My memories are hushed
But this secret you can't wait to gush
Inside I'm empty but you'll never know
I'm bright and sunny though inside it's started to snow

Now don't get me wrong
Even a raven can sing a song
Through the bleak dark times
Of this forsaken rapped rhyme



--Storm Chaser