My eyes are heavy from the day, sleep sounds like my cup of coffee. My head is confused, what should my emotion be? Happy? Nonchalant? Pissed? All of these emotions are at war in my heart. Do I have a right to be angry? Will being happy scare you away? Nonchalance might give you the wrong impression, letting you get away with something. SO CONFUSED! I miss your touch, your lips, the softness of your hands. I miss your voice and the sweet sadness in your eyes. How can I be mad at that? How can he "miss" me so much and do so little about it? What if he hurts me or is just using me? Fear enters the battle of emotions. My heart wants you, my stomach is nervous that my heart will break, and my head is raging with emotions too complex to explain! My eyes fill with tears as a headache sets in. I need to calm down, my lack of sleep is making my train of thought irrational. My final prayer of the night was: "Please give me the strength to do the right thing, even if it means breaking my own heart. Help him do the right thing too, it can't be a one person game. Please help me overcome the desire and stay on the path of destiny. Amen." And with that i blinked one last time before falling into a deep sleep, and dreamed of him.
~Storm Chaser
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